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suffocated

by Aditi Singh


I. world on fire

Her fingers graze the fruit’s surface,

her body’s surface, 

velvet peach skin resisting her movement,

hairs caught in the grooves of her hands the same tension

trapping her body, her spirit —

stuck, and too often left behind.


The velvet skin on her chest covers her heart,

her intentions, her love

but passion confined is not passion extinguished

sweet nectarous blood dares to explode from her body —

a peach free from its plush prison.


Yet she remains in fear,

for when the raging juice of her soul 

engulfs the gaping wounds of the Earth,

they will burn, and with that,

she sets the world on fire. 


II. scarlet flood

Yellow nectarines fill the crystal, 

little drops of liquified sun,

liquified Love,

straw

stretching into our throats with the warmth

of the world.


Sneering servers whisper words of scandal

our sun illuminating their self-righteous glances.

Eve was adam’s spare rib —

who gave her the right 

to renounce his flesh 


in exchange for another spare soul?

It certainly wasn’t them.

The faces around us 

shallow shapeshifters staring with pupils petrified, 

little screaming mouths dropping

at the sight of shameless sin, shameless freedom.

Shameless


gaping eyes morph into miniature moons,

but the tides they birth are razor sharp barbs

invading the sun we sip.

Each forbidden drink, forbidden lifetime

another drop of blood beading

at our throats.


One delicate drop at a time,

we drink.

Salt and blood swirl across the canvas of our skin —

who knew our insides were so beautiful?

The scarlet letters they scorn become scarlet essays of sin and solace

become a scarlet flood.


Our breakfast table

a perfect crime scene, a spectacular murder. 

who killed us, you ask?

Whoever decided that they needed a scarlet flood

to believe we were beautiful

to believe in our Love.


III. battleground

Her heart cries crimson tears into

a river of life, the river ingrained 

in a sacred land that once nourished her soul.

He promised the river would heal,

would save.


But his heel pounds on her healing

because to satisfy his river of life, of pride

he cares not if he pilfers hers.


Wading, blood-red waves bump

with the thumpthumpthump of the

lives he cheated, waves washing over like

yet another a coin flip —

one side the coat of arms arming 

his colonization of her body

the other 

the rage of generations

fooled into trusting a river

that only watered his ego.


Welcome to river America:

where control and protection

fold on each other like black suits in white houses 

who forgot that their game of cards was a life.

Her life.


Because a war fought for battleground states 

became battleground bodies

became women

became her.


His careless fingers start at her forehead,

drag through her hair, puppet-string strands

uprooted with every motion

puppet-strings wrap 

aroundandaroundandaround.


Instead of shielding her head

they steal her breath, steal her life,

steal her. Because


in America

when they tie her puppet strings,

they tie her a noose made of

water, made of blood.


In america,

her body is War.



IV: where the kelp grows

Her feet collapse into sand,

surrounded by the steps of others.

The kelp filters the sunlight that paints her face,

charred lines their own work of art.

Her face contorts as she screams —

once flatland skin twisting into valleys of despair,

transparent paper skin turning opaque with brass fury.

Close your mouth, dear. you’ll drown your lungs in the sea.

It’s quite unbecoming.

The ghosts laugh, bitter as always.

Stupid girl. what did you think would happen

when you spoke fire into water?


She peels off her shoes at the entrance of the graveyard

stretching feet into freshly laid dirt, and she listens.

Hollow silence engulfs the possibility of solace,

the air laid thick with anticipation

the soil’s musk ripe with the earth’s embrace

but eager to disappoint.

She sits at the base of the first headstone.

She cannot hear the corpses as they shriek into their coffins —

their waves of anguish relentlessly pounding.

The only difference is that they are six feet under dirt,

and she is six feet underwater.


She turns to face the dirt,

and she watches as kelp begins to grow on land.

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